Nineteen years. I only had her in my life for just nineteen very fast, very short years.
It’s crazy when I think about the fact that I myself have been a mom for over thirty six years now. Especially when I realize how much my interaction with my two adult children fuels my joy. She missed all of that. Such a rip off! But honestly, nothing about this experience called life falls into the category of “fair.” Losing her own mother at the age of nine, my mother knew this better than anyone.
Cancer, the usual suspect, robbed me and my two siblings of experiencing those much needed mom moments . . . those middle of the night bad dream episodes which only a mom’s nurturing can quell. I want to cry out “I need my momma!” But I’m only left with a fading voice in my head to sequester, a memory of her touch to soothe what ails me and a blurred sketch of her face to conjure up that reassuring look in her magical blue eyes.
Forty-two years. I’ve lived without her for forty-two years.
Does she know how much I miss her? Does she see how beautiful my relationship is with both my son and my daughter because of her influence on me?
If I could write a letter to her or pick up the phone and talk with her again, what would I say? I think I would keep it short, sweet and simple.
Dear Mom,
Life has been less sweet without you in it. I miss you all the time and wish I could feel your sweet caress on my tear-stained cheek.
I want you to know you gave me the best gift one human being can give to another – unconditional love. And that has proven to make all the difference. Thank you for always, without fail, making me feel heard, appreciated, validated and loved.
Because of you and your example, my children are loving, kind people. They think they have me to thank for their genuinely loving hearts – but I know the truth. I know that all that I am . . . is from you. I am so very grateful.
Love, your baby daughter
P.S. I love you Mom!
This article was written by a guest blogger. The opinions expressed here are those of the writer and do not reflect the opinions of Bob Lacey, Sheri Lynch or the Bob & Sheri show.
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